Hallelujah

Recently I've been going through a bit of a rough patch. Some of my really close mates, including my best friend, my brother and my boyfriend have all gone off to university. That has actually been a lot harder than I thought and I seem to spend most of my time wishing I was where they are. Yeah yeah I know: boo hoo, woe is me and all that. It sounds pathetic doesn't it? But, that's pretty much how I've been feeling, until tonight.

Tonight I walked home in the dark and the pouring rain. I left Zumba (amazing! You should all have a go!) with my umbrella open, my hood up, my head bent and my iPod in - completely ready to block out the world and everthing it entailed. All I wanted was to get home as fast as possible.

As I was trudging down the main road, 'Hallelujah' as sung by Ben Cantelon came on my iPod. It is  song of pure worship, with so few lyrics but so much meaning. Cantelon put all his effort into praisig God and suddenly I realised how selfish I had been. Yeah my loved ones may be far away, and yeah I may be stressed, and yeah things might not be working out too great with school. But you know what, God is always there. He is always, always there and I have failed to notice that.

An image cam into my mind, of God's love like the rain pouring down all around me. I could have kept my umbrella open and my hood up all the way home and tried to protect myself from the water as much as I could, but my feet would still have been soaked. The wind would still have blown my umbrella away from my face, exposing me to the rain, if only for a moment. There was no where to hide on my travels. No where to shelter from the rain. So, instead of fruitlessly trying I put away my umbrella, pulled back my hood and tilted my face towards heaven.

Suddenly, my walk home became worship. God's love was everywhere, soaking me to the skin, almost to the point where I felt as if my whole body was immersed in water. I love my God and wherever it is that I am going, wherever this journey is leading me I know it will be raining all the way if I keep my head tilted heavenwards.

Deep I know, but I wanted to worship in a similar way to Ben Cantelon and where he does it through music, I can do it through language.